Dear Mom and Dad,
I got a new job. It's at a law firm in Sundance Square. I know you'd be so proud. Dad, I'm sure you'd have come to lunch with me a LOT. Mom, I'm not walking the mall, but I'm walking around downtown every day at lunch. The scenery is better and the temptation to drain my pocketbook at Bath & Body Works isn't there. Dad, I stole the photos from your office. They are here at my office. Mom, I did the same with your photos. Now I can see you guys every day when I'm here. I have my degree and certificates on the wall also. Everyone here is SO amazing. I even have a bed here for the dogs, should I ever choose to bring them here. I can see the fountains in the plaza and even on the 9th floor, my window opens, so that I can let the breeze in, or just listen to the sounds of the water and people.
Tomorrow is the induction ceremony for Phi Theta Kappa, Beta Delta Omicron Chapter of Honor Society. I'm so excited. Even my boss is coming. I wish I could look out and see your faces in the crowd. I would love for you to meet Prof. B. I had him for most of my classes and in my hardest moments, he pushed me to keep going. He probably doesn't even know how much he helped.
I walked the stage in May. Brandi and Chris walked with me as we made our way through the cattle call. It was soooo much fun! Momma and Brad sat with Ryan in the stands. It was too hot to take photos that day, so now that it's gotten cooler out, we are going to go to the water gardens and the courthouse to take photos.
I know the house is a disaster right now. I will get that taken care of. It's just too hard right now.
There is so much more, I'm sure. I just can't think of it at the moment.
It hurts. I know you are in a much better place now, but I'm angry at times. I didn't have enough time. You never taught me how to live without you. You never prepared me for just how much this would hurt. I'm angry because if y'all hadn't been so stinking stubborn, you'd probably still be here.
I miss you.
I love you.
I hurt.
Tina
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